Shame Spirals Happen

Warning this blog contains sensitive subject matters.

Recently I had to disagree with a social post from a fellow yoga teacher that stated, "Abortion is safer than getting your wisdom teeth out!" The stance that was taken became about religious views, which in my opinion is preposterous. Regardless if women love Christ, Krishna, Buddha or are a practicing atheist, abortion can hurt women tremendously.

Being a woman who chose to terminate a pregnancy I felt tormented beyond comprehension in the religious community. While, they viewed themselves as holy and righteous since they followed what God said, I on the other side was suicidal and depressed horribly.

It took years after coming to God in a church setting to be healed. Years! I simply couldn't believe I could be forgiven, whole and redeemed. Grace was out of my reach even though I did in fact love God with all I had to offer.

Being taught that not only was I a dumb sheep, also my being ness is actual rubbish like a menstrual cloth, or a just basic turd that is less than an original turd. What I soon began to realize what that I was seen as someone who took innocent life while you created a whole ass religion from it.

What I also realized is that, I wanted absolutely nothing to do with any group or ideation that believes that sacrificing an innocence child is an act of true worship. Let me not mention then the communion of eating flesh and drinking blood as an added bonus.

When will we realize that Christian women suffer the same as non-Christian women that exercised their right to choose? Shame and brokenness crosses all lines of viewpoints, religions, political parties, colors, creeds, and all other "lines" that the world tries to use to separate us.

Creating a side based on an argument never helps the shame the woman feels deep in her heart who is actually the one standing before her Creator if you will. In this redundant debate she will duck out again from the political vs. religious viewpoints unseen and feeling once discarded. Validating what the church already told her.

The woman who needs someone to see her struggling beyond her fake smile begs the question, "Where is my safe place to speak truth and be heard? Not just to state the truth to be once again retaliated upon, but rather the place where compassion is offered to mend the brokenness. Where is that place for my shame?"

And which to my answer is, "On the cross with the rest of the shame. Absolved wholly."

I tried to explain to my fellow yoga teacher, who is a male by the way, to please consider that the pain is more than physical. Again it became about religion and argument. When we are more interested in making our opinion the point, we miss the opportunity to reach a women's hurting heart. That was entirely missed in my asking of a simple consideration.

For those of you who are hurting and have no voice please know you can contact me anytime to talk. I will listen without judgment. You are not alone!

Being abortion wounded myself I pray that you can find hope and peace if our paths don't meet face to face. Until then here is a soft gentle long held (((HUG)))

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